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today, i am a drainpipe--
emotional baggage leaking
like rain following the tendrils
of greasy hair, slopes of
bony cheeks
my coworker tells me i
am shrinking into nothing;
i am too biased to know
if the space of my waistband
is healthy
or concerning
customers tell me
they like the flowers i thread
through my hair;
i smile but don't tell them
the vibrant colors are supposed
to represent the happy
i can't seem to find
my mom tells me i
will get used to living alone,
it just takes time;
i don't argue anymore,
though i'm screaming, a bird
trapped in ribbone cages,
how much i hate it
my grandma says that this
was the best decision for me,
that living the way i was
for as long as i did
was never the answer;
most days, i believe her
but i wonder
how living as i am now
is any better
today, i am a river
sweeping the splinters
off the cliffs of my spine,
the waterfalls of my knees,
the points of all the joints that make me...
just trying
to figure out
who me is
now
emotional baggage leaking
like rain following the tendrils
of greasy hair, slopes of
bony cheeks
my coworker tells me i
am shrinking into nothing;
i am too biased to know
if the space of my waistband
is healthy
or concerning
customers tell me
they like the flowers i thread
through my hair;
i smile but don't tell them
the vibrant colors are supposed
to represent the happy
i can't seem to find
my mom tells me i
will get used to living alone,
it just takes time;
i don't argue anymore,
though i'm screaming, a bird
trapped in ribbone cages,
how much i hate it
my grandma says that this
was the best decision for me,
that living the way i was
for as long as i did
was never the answer;
most days, i believe her
but i wonder
how living as i am now
is any better
today, i am a river
sweeping the splinters
off the cliffs of my spine,
the waterfalls of my knees,
the points of all the joints that make me...
just trying
to figure out
who me is
now
Literature
Aqualung
You had been treading water
long before our eyes met;
I watched you swallow oceans,
cough them up between patches
of thick black smoke...
A landlocked hurricane
coming up for air
between crashing waves
and turning locks;
always choking back the tides
that would drown her
because no one wanted to walk
her rocky shores.
Not for long, anyway.
I've wanted to tell you,
That the bags under your eyes
and the lines on your face
have always looked like something
I could call home;
That you've got a smile
like a car crash in slow motion--
catastrophic, awe-inspiring,
breathtaking and tragically beautiful...
but something about all that saltwater
mak
Literature
l'amour a distance
we love like vagrants,
ours a truck stop romance,
ours all the vagaries of
runaway time:
us a roadside motel,
us a highway map,
us a crumpled collection
of interstate lines.
ours a vagabondish worship
of the distances we drive.
and all the violence of longing,
is that yours or is it mine?
and the vacancies in my body,
are they yours
or are they mine?
Literature
purposeless
in other words i am a failure
a miserable outcast misfit outfit
girl who loves girls who love boys
the girl with lips stained maroon over scarlet
maroon over crimson, maroon over rose
i am coughing laughing choking screaming
noises and voices whistling between teeth
like souvenirs for those who cannot breathe
i am everyone’s epitaph poem, your favourite funeral song
i am writing my obituary between the breaths i take and the breaths i fake
inhale exhale inhale exhale dinhale nexthale skinhale testhale sinhale bestfale
i am asthma romanticized and drowning glorified and failure immortalized
i am a failure but i do it so well and i am
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